Still Looking

 

“Are you the person you’re looking for is looking for?”

This is a question I first became familiar with a little over a year ago. However, it hit me in a new way last night. If you have read any of my previous blog posts, you know how I feel about this whole single and not in a relationship thing and how it has affected me.

It seems that lately I really have thought I am ready for a relationship. Obviously there are people that I am interested in and would be interested in dating, yet when I try and initiate something, it never gets off the ground. That process always leaves me where many people before me have been, asking what am I doing wrong or whats wrong with me or why am I not good enough. Then last night happened. I was listening to the first sermon in a series that I have listened to quite a few times, and the pastor asked this question, “Are you the person you’re looking for is looking for?” I did not stay awake very long into the sermon before I fell asleep. However, I was awake long enough for that question to hit me and hit deep. That question hit me in a new way, like it never had before and I began to realize why I’m still in that dreaded “single and not in a relationship” place.

“Are you the person you’re looking for is looking for?”

[I am not the person that the person I am looking for is looking for. I heard another pastor on a different occasion say that sometimes God does not bring us a person who could be our spouse sometimes, because we aren’t ready and we would ruin things if he brought them to us at that time. What does that mean, exactly? It means that even if God placed the girl He has for me to marry right in front of me, I would screw it up and things wouldn’t work, because I am not the person that I need to be. Too often, I’ve looked at being single as a curse and a place that I hate. Now what? I take this place I am at and make the most of it, seek God and allow Him to make me who I need to be. If you’re single, looking or not, ask yourself that question, ‘are you who the person you’re looking for is looking for?’ If not, what needs to change? Pursue God before you pursue your future spouse.